We went shopping for nursery decor. We continue to get gifts – both new and hand-me-downs. I find myself constantly arranging and decorating the nursery. I told Wendy that Hope’s room is a revolving door of mess. She replied with,
“It always will be.”
Wow! That made me take a deep breath, or maybe I stopped breathing for a minute. I think about babies all the time. I think about holding, changing, feeding, changing, dressing, bathing, and changing this baby. Sometimes, when I see a toddler, I think about being the mother of a toddler. If I see a child, teenager, or young adult, I do not think of myself as being a parent to a person that age. I think that’s all right. One step at a time. We will have our hands full as it is. There is no reason to rush.
The nursery is decorated enough to look cute and like it belongs to Hope. The changing table is functional with diapers, lotions, and diaper genie in handy locations. The bassinet is ready. The bathtub is put together. We made the strollers ready to hold the baby carrier. We tested the audio monitor. It’s awesome! Car seat bases are going in the cars this week. I’m picking up the glider today. As you can see, there has been a lot of constructing and putting together. I even made that darn paper mache mold of Wendy’s pregnant belly. It is unfinished, and I don’t think I am the one who is going to reinforce or decorate the belly cast. Of course, I didn’t think I would be the one to make it either.
We went to the doctor for another ultrasound last Friday. Hope’s estimated measurement is 7lbs, 6oz. Hope is lower in Wendy’s belly and putting more pressure on her cervix and her BLADDER. I have never seen anyone use the bathroom so often.
Wendy is scheduled to have a c-section on April 27th. Haters, don’t judge. The first thing the doctor told Wendy is that her pelvis bone is small and narrow. I doubt mine is. He said that delivering a baby over 6 pounds would be difficult and potentially traumatizing for the baby, Wendy, or both. He said he would give Wendy the pros and cons of vaginal delivery. Ultimately, it would be her decision. Then, came the gestational diabetes diagnosis and the real possibility of the baby’s size being above average. We were given more pro’s and con’s. Even though Wendy would love to have a vaginal delivery, it has been calming to know what to expect and when to expect it.
I thought. Hope is showing signs of not wanting to wait until April 27th. Wendy is showing signs of not wanting to wait. Although it is against my core beliefs, we might not stick to the original schedule. I want to give you a heads up on a possible subject for a future entry. It would not be unusual for me to faint during a medical procedure.
If you don’t know my background, here are a few things I have done in the past. I fainted and almost fell off the examination table the first time I saw my knee after ACL reconstruction. I almost fell out of the chair after having 2 moles removed. I had to lay in the floor and prop my feet on a bench after cutting my leg while shaving. Recently, I had to lay down and use a cold compress after having a mole removed. My most famous moment of weakness was in 1987 when I blacked out at the U2 concert when I witnessed a guy get his teeth knocked out in a fight. I was lifted and passed over the crowd and thrown up on the stage for the EMS to take me to their triage with a bunch of drunk and drugged people. Yes, I have body surfed while unconscious.
I am mentally preparing for the experience of being in the room during major abdominal surgery. I will make sure that all the doctors and nurses know that I don’t want to see anything. I will wait and see that baby when they bring it over for Wendy to see. Hopefully, I won’t need my own nurse during the birth.